Today was a “loss” kind of day which means there was very little for me to find. The kind of loss that I am talking about is loss of something necessary, loss of health (not mine but someone I care about), loss of words, loss of taste (not mine), loss of physical movement, loss of joy, loss of connection – here a loss, there a loss, everywhere a loss. I just went home early and settled into (rather than onto) my thinking chair, first breathing and then resting my eyes. After all these years “mama didn’t need to tell me there’d be days like this.” Loss is impactful. It’s been said loss is psychologically twice as powerful as the pleasure of gain. Not sure it’s statically provable but anecdotally I will tend to agree. I started wondering about losses, more specifically the loss of moments I had to be present and helpful. Those past missed moments bring both regret and a reminder of purpose. I stumbled on an old Peanuts cartoon that has Lucy standing in the outfield of Charlie Brown’s baseball team. As a fly ball sails toward her, she remembers all the other times she’s dropped the ball. You can guess what happens next: She drops this one, too. Then Lucy calls out to Charlie Brown, who’s standing there on the pitcher’s mound: “I almost had it, but then my past got in my eyes!” Missed opportunities brings me regret but the wisdom in scripture says press forward. I’ll deal with regret but I also need to remember there is a larger perspective when these “kind of days” take hold. I believe those missed moments and opportunities are not conscious and intentional. (If they were, I can’t define them as missed because it was my intention.) So let me suggest, what I can offer myself… press on, pay attention, do what you can and let go of what needs to be left behind.
Scripture Reading: Philippians 3:13-14
“Beloved, I do not consider that I have made it my own; but this one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the heavenly call of God in Christ Jesus.”
What did you miss or not notice today?
What do you need to let go of in order to press on?
How do you envision what lies ahead for you?
Prayer: Holy God, I am grateful for the many people you put into my life. I am blessed by their presence. Continue to fill me with your Spirit so I may not miss any occasion to share life together. Amen.